A short poem... b/c it ended so quickly

I told him to beam me up, and I thought he was down.

Said give me laughter, sadly smiles became frowns.

We had somethings in common, could coversate about anything.

Even started liking the guy , got engaged without the ring.

When he said transportation wasn't an issue, I was dumb enough to believe him.

I guess he got bored with me , All lights have to go dim.

He was different so I thought, Guess I thought wrong.

That's the way it goes, it was hyped up like a one hit wonder song.

I know that it's over, sweat it?? Never crossed my mind. Another chapter to the novel, your Strengthing my grind.

I would like to say I did have fun, thats all you can ask for I guess.

Just a short quiz to help me ace that love test. lol

~Poet Free Summer Windham X]

SOOOOOO! [im kinda angry]

I have this one friend that likes ALLL my statues, my links, post. and it drives me crazy!!!!

Their my friend and all but.. I just want to tell them YOOOO chill !!!!!! Get off my PAGE!!! GRRRR!!

When their name is the name that pops up the most it's really annoying!...!!!!

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [Real monsters lol]

Ok ok .. i think im good.

If i could just have a conversation with you

If I could just have a coversation with you... That wouldn't only make my day...It would mean soo much more.
I would have to bump into.. b/c the whole fb thing is.. Not real enough.
Since I was a freshmen hearing your name made me smile.But i was an underclassmen, just tryna find her way.
Now your looks are something out of the ordinary.Tall... like a tree I would climb.. if i wasnt scared of falling off.Not dark or light skin but brown.. Smooth like milk chocolate with the hint of caramel.Smiles wit no teeth, but there's no need to what he gives is just enough.
I've seen your outside.. and I want you to let me in..Your mind, soul... and maybe if the path leads it there maybe even your stomach. b/c you know what they say a way to a mans.. well u know it .
But That whole 4-letter word thing is not even why I want to even have a convo.I've never got a chance to bump into you and even say hi.
And when I see something I like... I go for it.No matter what I want the outcome to be.FriendshipBuddiesHomiespeople who pass by and smile @ each otherLol idk whatever it becomes.
If I were to have a convo wit you I would say...

Hi , You may not know me.. but you should.Lol[I would really laugh b/c thats funny]Anywho I went to east but I grad 08 so I know u don't know me.Anywho b4 u walk away I just wanted to tell you that I love how different you are.. or as i've seen.I mean ppl become friends b/c of the smallest things.I dig the music you listen to not only b/c we listen to some of the same thing but you listen to things that I come to like.I know you can play. I remember from high school, even seen you play some in college.. I have friends who go to the same school as you do.#2 right.[and i'll be wrong lol]Well If you ever need help listening to hip hop or even play videogames with.... here's my #.
Maybe it's lame. but im nervous even typing it.Lol Lol but this is to you.And one day if we do I have a convo.. I may let you read it. until then....

Sorry for my absence

So it's been like 1 1/2 months or smthg like that.

To my 5 wonderful fans.. I'm ok!

I've just been going through alot.

I should of came to you and released my stress but ... It was hard for me to even talk about it.

I'm still not right with my self. BUT I'm getting there. Fosho!!

I got alot I gotta work on and I hope to GOD things start going well.

I can almost smell it.

I see it, All I gotta do is pedal[ or put in work] Lol Anywho I won't stay away to long anymore.

I miss stroking the keys everynight. lol

Anywho I'm back So get wit it!!

=D

I just wanna nice date...

My Idea of a Good date is pretty simple.
I'm the most confusing simple coolest lamest goofest person ever. lol

I'm into to spending alot of money.
I mean I'm on the date to get to know you. It's not "See how fast we can spend my paycheck night"
Lol The whole normal date night. Dinner movies. eh it's ok.

I'd Rather Go to the park walk and talk about whatever comes to mind.
Grab a pizza or burgers.
Go back to his crib and play videogames and just have a goodtime.

Or Going to a record store and vibing to artist. Learning what artist we like and dislike.
Then Grab smthg to eat.. [I'm a fat ass so eating is always in my plans]

Anything I don't have to think to much on.

Just hoping in a car and the guy already knowing what were doing.

Riding around in a car tryna decided what were gonna do for 15 minutes is NOT how I wanna start my date [Sadly thats how they go]

I like spending time having fun and eatn . Lol One day this will change!! one day

Yes or No [Sorry for the wait ]

Me: Yes or No... Are you better without me?
Answer: No?: Same question..
Me: To be real idk ..
?:Thanks for being honest..

Next day....


?:Rethought the question. I'm better with or without you, your just nice having around... respond if you want.
Me:Deletes txt.. lol

So Basically what we had was whatever...Not saying that you couldn't live without me.
But I'm worth more than someone that's nice to have around...Damn a dog is nice to have around.I'm not tryna work b/c that's as lame as the 2nd txt you sent me.
I am more than just a random friend you randomly txt b/c your bored.I have way more depth than that.
I thought I did the wrong thing by breaking up with you.But I was literally a season for you.Hot steamy and filled wit goodtimes.But Summer doesn't last forever does it?
One day for someone it will be Summertime All year long.No more cold winter nights.Not more windy days to blow you off track.And less rainy days.....
One day someone will be able to handle all this heat. And find out that it's actually Heavenly...
Til that day comes...

Up in here up in here!

I hate niggas who call females bitches.. but I Love DMX....[SMH]

I'm just feeling DMX HArdcore right now... just thought you should know.

Someday You'll laugh about it ...

So Lucky me!!! Lol
I just got out of a relationship.

I still love him and junk but... he's not for me.
I cried about it... [ i mean I am a girl or whatnot]

But I'm ready to laugh about it.



Lol So seriously.
I'm fine with being single and having friends and just chilln.
I really don't need anything holdong me down right now.
I gotta make moves and REALLY do something wit my life.

I work. I blog. I club.
But I'm ready to travel. To experience. To go to school.
Create memories .
Have stories to tell.

I wanna look back on this point in my life and laugh , To say thank God that I wasn't stuck in one place b/c I wouldve been in this situation then... I wouldn't have done this great fantabulous thing.... lol

Anywho I'm not in my room crying.
I'm not crushed , and i'm barely missing him... lol
I'm...... moving on and doing better things. <3

And I thought It'd be funny to have something from Lion king on my blog! XD

I hate Butterflies.. in my tummy =/

If I'm not that interested in a person it's so easy for me to talk to them.

But If I have a crush... I feel as if I'm not good enough to talk to them.

Lol It's funny but yet sad @ the same time.

I mean I'll try to ease in the picture .

But I'm never really blunt with it.

I would just send a e-mail and say hey very cute guy.

I'm summer if you didnt know.

Just wanted to let you know that ur awesome and cute.

Lol I would probably get laughed @ for years .

I should just woman up and say whats up right?

Lol but having butterflies is awesome in it's self though.

Anybody who can give me buterflies. Congrats to you. =D

Females who expand my mind [3]

Lady Bug!!!

I 've been wanting to be like her since I was like 3 years old.
I have this video tape of me @ my 3rd birthday party and I have a microphone and I'm "Rappin" lady bug 's part from Rebirth of Slick .

She is so chill.
Her lyrics are bomb.

Her flow is mad laid back.
She's not tryna be gangster.
Or way to SEXY .

Ladybug is Ladybug.
And that's what makes her someone I look up to.
I mean anybody who does what they do and not let ppl change them or there style is my shero.





Plus she was wit digable planets.. you can't go wrong wit that.

I love boarders.

[Yes I took this =) I'm tryna get better so if u board let me know =) ]

It's not like omg u can't talk to me , b/c u dont skateboard.
It's just an EXTREME plus....

I mean If I see a cute boarder I say "You skate?.. you gotta let me take pics"
Lol <3

Why i cn't get down wit dat...

Not even gonna say where I went.. lol
B/c AWHOLE LOT OF PPL had fun.

Did I ??
Hell's NAW!!
Lol I haven't been to _________ in awhile so I was like let's go.

Smh the ppl I roll wit,
Don't get me wrong I love them to death..
But I love them more sober... smh

Anywho As you can see the place was jump'n
We wait'd like almost 30 mins in line [should of took a pic of the line... darn]

1~Way to many ppl in there for me
*I like to have room to dance
2~Way to much fighting for me...
*fighting doesn't solve anything.. [thats all for that one]
3~Wack ass dudes[but thats almost evrywhere you go]
*Dude grabbin me like they know me...
*Dudes calling evry female they see a hoe... or bitch [fuck that shit ]
*..... u know the rest
4~I thought this was funny this guy named C#@%.. who been on my JOCK about hanging out.
Lol had me rollin b/c he didn't know who I was. LMBO!... smh
5~Going to the parking lot tryna CALM EVERYBODY DOWN!
But can't.. you know why????
B/c some dumb ass.... Wants to blast Waka flocka Flame ... [ just tryna start smethg]

DONT GET ME WRONG..
I did have some kind of fun last night... and it was only a $1 to get in.
I just won't go for a while ..

But I did get to dance wit my 10th grade crush =]

So thats' always awesome...

Yea I still jerk in the club.. What you gotta say?

WARNING THIS VID IS MAD OLD!! WHEN I FIRST LEARNED HOW TO JERK! DON'T LAUGH...
@ me anyways.. lol

Jerkin was old when it was hot. lol like real talk. anywho I really don't care HOW old jerkin is...

I still do the running man..

I'mma do it until I get tired of it! =P

That is all.

Mj Mj Mj ... o how I love thou

Everyone says this but.. I am mos def one the Biggest Mj fans.

Me and my fam Have mj moonwalker the moive,all the cd's,All th jackson five records.. yes vinyl children, we named are dog mj, a 3d potriat of him in out living room..

Lol To some that might seem ghetto.

Lol but it's how we show our love.

Music wouldn't be the same @ all with aout him.

And all those ppl tired of hearing about him, close your ears.

He was one of the greatest musicians that ever lived.

They couldn't leave him alone when he was alive.

You must be crazy if you think they would let him rest in peace.

I put the vid up b/c my friend wanted to know who sampled lady of my life and I couldn't figure it out. lol

Then this pop'd up so I had to put this up.

But ONE of my MOST favorite songs by mike is

Can't help it

I knew this was one of my favorites since I was in elementary school.

But my favorite De La Soul song sampled this... you know.

And I know me and ryan leslie love can't help it b/c of the break down in...

[when im lookin in the mirror....]

But back to break of dawn by De La Soul. I LOVE break of dawn by mj as well. That was on the Invincible ablum.

You will always be in my heart, and forever in music.

I love you...

Did you notice..

That B5 STEALS ALOT!!!
lol I mean beside ALL I do.


Like U got me....



Doesn't kinda look like.....





I'm just sayn... [and just to let you know.... I noticed it when the vid came out =P]

Ehhh...

I was cleaning my room today and decided to listen to my now's...

Yes I bought the "Now that's what I call music" cd's I have 3-25...

Leave me alone! lol

But This song was on.. 12? I think,

But it had me going back lol like .

I was at a school dance.. and I knew ALL the words...

But did I have them on my feet?? lol Mos def was rockin some addias.

Lol Random !!!

The Ruler...

From the kangoo
To the eye patch
Gold teeth
100 hundreds of chain.
Shows that he is a ruler.

But when the man opens his mouth....
Omg!

One of the GREATEST rappers.
To me and to who ever else has sense.

Lol I grew up on him like HARDCORE.
It was played in my house like clock work.
Was I born in the 80's .. no .

But his style of rapping is just amazing.
He'll spit and you can image everything he's saying.

Like one of the best story tellers.
Like the song



The video doesn't even do the song justice to me.


I mean his style is all his own.
Some people tried to imatate him....
Cough Cough [dana dane]
[Just to let you know I do like dana dane i'm just sayn they sound similar and both told stories sooo... yea] Have you ever heard of cinderfella[great song]

They Really need a video for La di da di...
lol

Even though my rapping is not up to par with alot of things.
If I were to be a great rapper and have @ least one thing from my favorite rappers
I'd would have the power of story telling from The ruler...

Why Chitown is where it's @ part 1

Donny Hathaway....

The man was a genuis.

Born in Chicago... [wink]

Started singing @ the age of 3.
Went to howard.[fine arts nigga! =P][didn't finish though... he had alot offers in the music biz]

Started a jazz band.
Met his girl @ howard.

Had three girls 1 Lalah~in love wit her, got her solo career goin
2 kenya does back up for american idol.

But his music is just... so moving.
He did what he did.. and he did it SO well.

I could listen to him all day and NEVER get tired of his voice.
And don't get me started on him and Roberta Flack.. uhh
Best duets of life.
The closer I get to you
Back together again....
the list go on and on.

Sadly donny suffered from depression.
And was paranoid.

He was taking medication.
And when he took it he was fine.
Without it... ppl say he was hard to deal with.

He was found dead january 13th he was found dead on the sidewalk from 15 floor room
of a hotel in new york.

He will never be forgotten.

Way to great to be forgotten

I love you...

Donny hataway.......

in tears[while writing this]

I get into these moods where i'm to happy to write.
I feel as if I'm in a dark state, and upset.
My passion just pours out.
I rather be alone and full of tears and have something
then to do things that make me so happy and have no words to write down...
Sad huh?

It's hard because there's someone out there that wants to make me so happy.
And I won't let him.....

I'm so messed up inside.
And instead of putting somebody through all that mess.
I rather push them away.
Love them from afar.

Being single is ....
well complicated.

Being in a relationship is safe.
[@ times]

Joy is in both.
But the pain out weighs the joy at times.

I might just be in my emo stage @ the moment.

But I gotta release for a moment get it out .

I promise i'll cheer up soon and write some off the wall stuff.


Song of the moment

Check the.....

He may follow me but he won't read it! See this guy^^^
His Name is... pretty awesome.
Lol but you know when you date someone.
And you just stop talking to them???
Well that didn't happen.
He's one of my closet friends.
Til this day we both don't know why we broke up.

Some people say Girls and guys can't be friends....
Lol I think they can, stuff may happen but they can be friends.
From the corny convo,
To the odd nicknames.
He's my homie and i'd hate to lose him.....

But just in case he does read this.
Me and him need to stop BULLSPITN'
And Do the song.... u know what i'm talking bout??




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Newho I love the pirate hippie loving no cheese having guy! =P

Badu!

She is a fool.

But for real.

Why can't music be music.

It's all about what that person is wearn, doing , screwing.

And wit females they always gotta sex it up.

Lol Erykah... Analogue girl in a digital world.

Thank you for being you....

You help'd me grow and become my open minded,

and not scared to be myself.

[We have the same color layout on youtube =D]

Females who expand my mind [2]

Roxanne Shante.

Now some folk may find her voice annoying.

But I Love her.

I mean she heard UTFO's "Roxanne Roxanne"... And was like

Pssh... Peep this

The whole song was a freestyle... Top of the doom!!!!!
She got this roxanne war started and made a name for her self.
To many ppl tryna start beef and take it to far.

She beef'd through music..
Showed her skills.
Sayn I can hold my own. female or not....
But my favorite song by her is.... =D

The females who expand my mind...[1]

My mother .
I love her with all my heart .
We may disagree on alot!
But she is the only human being I can count on.

Anywho, My mother is a teacher.
And she can write her behind off!
Her poetry is... just outstanding.

When she spits.. she always comes correct.
My mom always played music around the house.
I knew how to work a record player @ a young age.

We'll be riding and an old but goodie will come on and i'll know the words.
And she'll look at me like.. "What you know about that?"
In my mind" Well you have it in ur cd or record collection sooooo... "
Lol

I get my love for writing from her.
.... If I could only rap.
Sigh guess I gotta work on that.

She inspires me to be a better woman.
And thats a goal that I will be working my hardest at.

And she never gets the guy.

I will always be that nerdy girl with the camera.
But I don't mind it anymore.

It's just sad that I deal with crushes just like I did when I was in middle school.
Always talk about them but NEVER speak to them.
Sadly I never really crushed on the jocks or the gangsters.
I ALWAYS loved nerdy guys, guys who were different than everybody.

To shy to even talk to the dorky dude....
Because I knew I wasn't the baddest.
That's what stopped me.
I knew they would atleast consider me as a friend if I just opened my pretty mouth.

But I just pass by them in the hall.
Get right behind them and ALMOST have my finger on his shoulder....
Then punk out.

Then they'd date some really cute chick, and I couldn't be mad b/c...
I never said anything.
You can't notice someone unless they know your there?

One day I will woman up and let my crush know....
I wonder if anyone ever crushed me???
Sigh.... smh

Are u excited like I am???

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Gorillaz New Album Plastic Beach!!!!

Jamming to it NOW!

I Love u noodle! =D

A poem.. 4give me i haven't written a poem ina while

With all the emotions that I have be it good or be it sad.
There's only 2 things to grab and that's my pen and my pad.
I have few things that I would like to address.
So just let me run my mouth it's something I do best.
If you are what you eat then I know alot of dudes that are pussy.
Not saying that every dude has to be a wussy.
But if your good at what you do then just leave it at that.
I promise she'll rave to her friends about how ur head game is phat.
But enough of that.. what did i come here to say.
Oh yea the question that people ask my every single day.
Rap and poetry just gotta be they same?
I say lyrically yes, but their two different games.
Rap and poems are for the pop world.
Hip hop and poetry are for the under ground lords.
Hip hop is and art, it's ok to do it for fun.
If the rapper doesn't see money he grabs his pad and runs.
To many rappers out here rapping about nothing.
And wonder why the money was just a fling.
You don't have to be hard to rap so don't let that be your angle
There are plenty of wannabe's, be yourself don't get into the game all tangled.
For your info the shade of hip hop is multicolored.
It doesn't matter where your from, we don't have to smother one color.
With all that said people still won't listen.
Tryna make a dollar steady baking in the kitchen.
I cn't knock no one's hussle, do what you do.
But before you think about yourself think about what you do effects the people around you.
Everyone so stuck on them selves, not knowing that if you don't help with whats goin on.... yourself and how you do things will be changed as well.
Just because nobody cared for you doesn't mean you can't care for somebody else.
If you have more than enough to go around share the wealth.
Whether it be money food time, or just being your damn self.
I wrote this because this I how I feel inside.
I guess it's time to release the feelings and let them join the ride.
Now this is not the ride for bandwaggoners.. i have no time for them.
These are for folk who want to be inspired, who want to take the basket all the way to the rim.
Dreaming isn't a bad thing unless you dn't act on it.
Change the world, you can do it baby steps, may take a while but you'll get it.

Power to the world!

I was born in 90.

So you know I was a spice girl FAN!

Spice Girls were the Shiznats!

I was CRAZy about them. I mean had the movie, the playstation game, stickers,candy, books, the tape... smh.

I mean I was in love.

But being @ an all white school. During recess me and a group of girls would play spice girls.

And we all know who I had to be. Yes Scary spice. But She was my favorite besides posh spice. I like Mel.B b/c she was different . She was crazy and she didn't care if ayone liked it or not. And I kinda felt like her at times [may not of effected her] But all my friends were white. I loved my friends. Now i have so many friends of different race. But back then I loved them alot b/c of how I felt like them friend wise. But anywho....

Almost every girl around my age atleast liked one song by them.

They were AWESOME. Lol

So u know how upset I was when they didn't come over here for there reunion concerts =[

It's ok i'll jam with my best friend ^=]

210 !!!

http://www.youtube.com/user/checkit93



^This I my Youtube channel.

I Currently have 120 videos.
To me .. that's something to smile about.
I mean It's just random videos of random days.
But there my memories... And I wouldn't get rid of them @ all.
I have plenty of vids wit ppl who screwd me over or who I dn't even talk to.

Yet in still I keep them up b/c even though were not cool.
Atleast we had a cool moment together.

I'm proud to be a youtuber! lol
So if u wanna laugh @ me and my friends just click the link!
And enjoy! =D

I miss cali yes i do ,

I miss Cali you should to!

Lol I'm going to visit my aunt and cousins in yuba city.

=D I'm So excited.

I went out there in like 07 and LOVED it.

I miss my lil cousin. Alot last time I saw him was like.. my graduation.

I love the weather.

Last time I went out there my uncle took us EVERYWHERE!

Sacramento

Oakland

San Jose

San Francisco

I can't WAIT to go back....

Are you for real??

You may not care but really?

Are kids really this constipated??

That they have to put MORE fiber in their cereal??

And Yes I hate the commercials..

Have you not seen it??

It may make ur tummy happy...
But your butt will hurt!!! =/
Smh

AL CAPONE...

January 17, 1899 – January 25, 1947

People love Scarface....

I'm more of a Godfather fan.

But one thing I do know...

Is that I love Mobsters...

Well I love to learn about them.

I wish I knew why but I dn't.

Al capone ...

If you ask someone who their favorite gangster is.

You'll mostly likely hear he's name.

Not Lucky Luciano

Not Frank Costello.

But Al capone.

Don't get me wrong .

The man was bad and I give him his props.

But when your ahead of the mob.

Your not susposed to be flashy and out in the open.

The mob is low key .

They do everything under wraps .

But this dude right here.. smh

He was everything but that.

He went to prison and was treated like a king.

He had rugs a nice bed, a desk a HUGE radio [back then all of them were huge but i'm saying]

Lamps. Even art work for him to look @ . lol

And he could walk around like he was a warden.

Out of ALL the things he could of went to jail for ...

He went to jail b/c he didnt pay his TAXES!

And he died there..

Lost control of the mob.

Dude died b/c of syphilis

Sleeping all the women he could.

Back then he couldn't get treated for it.

He lost a whole bunch of weight.

Got a stroke started to gain his strength,

Caught pneumonia ,then went into cardiac arrest...

Being a gangster may look fun.

But it ends.

And it ends bad.

But if you wanna know more look it up learn something! =D

Shoot'em UP!

I need this shirt like ASAP!
I love to photograph b/c it's what inside me.
After my grandma past which was like 2005,
we had ALL her things and the one thing she had most of was
pictures... WE are still goin through them.
I feel like she has passed it on to me.

It's mos def away for me to express myself so.
I know with my poetry I can say alot but wit photography.
There's no need for words.
And at times.. that's wonderful.

If u hangout wit me get ready for a photo shoot! =D

I want to meet somebody.

And talk to them and ask them who do they listen to.

In there list of great artist I want them to say.....

I love TANYA MORGAN.

Then my life would be unreal .

To actually to talk to someone about them.

B/c i've just been tryna but my folk on them.

I'm late I first heard of them like 2-3 years ago.

When I heard them... I fell immedately.

I had Want you to want me on my page for like...

A YEAR.

Their style is great .

They make music... Not radio.

The radio can die for all i care. .. well @ least some stations...

Tanya morgan I make a trip to Brooklynati so often.

that I just need to move there.

Sigh ...

Why does everyone wanna lose.
So scared to know anything.
You starve yourself by being ignorant.
Nothing is wrong with gaining.
Get ur weight up ... with knowledge etc etc ...
Step out side .. Get out that box u call a world.
~ME!

O How I love Sonic!

Charles Hamilton....

The guy who got me to blog.

His lyrics, producing skills, mind... is just on the edge.. of the universe.

I remember the first time i heard him.. AND NO!!!! the song wasn't Brooklyn girl.

[Don't get me wrong.. smtimes that's the only song ppl know by him...]

But it was...

And I just fell in love

I mean he's a cutie.

Lol but he made me Love his mind.

I have a sonic song for different emotions.

Every now and then = I'm feeling like I need to tell smebdy smthg

Windows Media Player= Imma about to write some poetry..or just put a pen in my hand

Body telepathy= When i'm crushin on smebdy

Neh Neh Neh = I'm in a mode to rip smebdy up wit lyrics

The N word = Hmm idk yet.. but I love to listen

Ringtone rap = Dancing / cleaning mood lol

Lemme know= makes me laugh[intro] and the beat uuuuuhhh!!

Anywho get on him.

I'm glad he's not ghostly anymore.

And have you've seen his blog???

No?... get it together!

Yes!.. you already know I don't even have to say anything

Sooooo I love him>

Heavy D... and why I love him..

Now 1994 the Nuttin but love album came out...









I was only 4 ...... but you couldn't tell me nothing.

Now heavy D was a cool dude.
And he could rap.

Like he's flow is like no one else's.
Did I notice this when I was four.... maybe.
I was calling people sexy @ that age so I dn't see why not?? lol

My grandma LOVED heavy D .
Grandma was a blues loving R&B chick...
So it means alot to me that she loved him as much as I did.






Out of all his albums... Nuttin but love WAS my favorite.

The song Nuttin but love is classic.. at least to me.
Talking about shorty I know your smart , ur fine.
Got a good head on your shoulders but all I got for you is love.

Which should be the main reason you SHOULD be wit someone..
But I guess Golddiggers need love to smh.

Black Coffe!!
He made me love being me even more.
You don't gotta be mixed or exotic.
Be yourself a beautiful black woman... That's the kinda girls I like.

To me there was hope that someone out there maybe like me for who I am.

HeavyD I give you my props... One of my FAVORTIE rappers EVER!

So ... I'm different

All my life i've been called weird......
I've ALWAYS hated being called that.

I say whats on my mind.. even if it's silly.
But thats what makes me.. ME.

And I wouldn't want to be anyone else..

Not everybody got picked on.
But I know I did.

My clothes weren't in style.
Never had the flyest kicks.
Listened to what was hot to them , and things they never even heard in there LIFE.
I was into school, history , science .
Went to the dances danced in my little circle of people who actually got me.

Middle school for me... was hell or something like it.
I had short hair , wore hammy downs, and was soo shy.

Freshmen year .... I bloomed like a flower.
Gotta perm for my nappy head
Dated a crazy ass dude... smh [you make mistakes smh]

I learned how to open my mouth and speak.

I became the popualr Loner.....
Strange but I had so many DIFFERENT types of friends .
Different colors, different ways of being them.

I will always be a nerd.
I am the president of the Nerdy Gangsters!

I found out not only am I different... I'm Unique.

Hey can't be irreplaceable if ur like the rest.... <3

Crush!!!

So....

I think it's safe to put this out there.

I have a crush.. not on ^[this guy right on]

Lol But my crush sorta looks like him.. but way cuter,

Newho I was always the girl who was too nerdy to date or even talk to that really cute nerdy kid across the hall.

I ALWAYS got picked on .. until high school , but by that time I really didn't care what people called me.

I know for a fact that I won't act on it.

I won't ever see him or anything.

But I had to tell somebody.

I JUST got the courage to add him on fb.

[SMH] .. Goofball= ME!

He's a friend of a friend.

And I would ALWAYS hear about him or what not but you know me.

[Wait you don't... sigh let me break it down...]

I was very shy , now I actually talk to a guy without mumbling..

BUT If I have a crush on somebody I won't act on it b/c I'm way to a chicken.

Maybe one day I could like get the courage to like pop chat him or even see him face to face.

Like i'm mad goofy but the first time I "Saw" him,

A friend showed me this vid of these 2 guys on youtube...

And they where SOOO funny.[ one of the guys was him...]

Anywho that's what my crush kinda looks like and I'm putting this on here b/c as of now I have no follwers and I HIGHLY doubt he'd bump onto my blogspot...

=D

How Do you talk white??

My mother is a teacher.

My grandmother always taught me good grammer.

I went to the school my mother taught at which was mostly white.

But what I could never understand was when I got around my cousins or

one of my African American friends they would always say...

"Oh Summer you talk white"

Now when I was little it bothered me so much because.

I felt as if they were calling me white.

And I was like " I'm black do you not see my skin color?"

I had to grow and realize that they meant....

I talk proper english.

I'm proud to sound like I know what i'm talking about.

Lol

Now a days when someone says that I'm so quick to correct them.

You can't act a color.

If you where on stage right at this moment and someone told you to be the color yellow....

How in the world would you act it out???

I say no she isnt a white girl acting BLACK!!

She's ghetto.

I just attack and laugh when it comes up..

B/c I know I am a strong African American

No matter how I dress Talk, sing dance!

I am me ... and I am Black! =D

Which season do i like the most

Well ALL my life I've heard the season jokes...

Have a Great Summer ..."Summer"
Omg "Summer" hurry up and come
Imma need you this winter baby to warm me up.... [I'm SOO beyond serious smh]

And the SONGS
Summertime~ Jazzy Jeff and the Fresh Prince
SummerBreeze~The isley Brother [Sigh my 5]
SummerBunny~ R. Kelly
Summer Love ~ Justin Timberlake
And So forth and so forth

But in the past 5- 4 years I've gained a whole new pun to my joke ...
[and she's not just a pun u ppl she is golden.. u kno like jill scott]
One that I would never want to go away.

And her name is Autumn.
My BestNess.
My Soulmate.

We've been through SOOO much together.
We may fall out every once in a while ... but
We were meant for each other..

I know it sounds homo... lol but i really don't care. =P

She's the salt to my pepper.
The phife to my tip
The cocaine to my mirror .
The melody to my lyrics....




I <3 her Just thought you should know!!!

Whenever you meet a girl , dude, partner, roomate.. [whatever you wanna call them]

And you been talking on the phone or texting.

21 questions ALWAYS comes up... most of the time.

Now the basic questions are favorite food, color.

Do you have any pets brothers and sisters etc etc.

It gets boring after awhile so I have one question that just helps me better understand someone.

[Kinda] lol

My FAV 21 question , question is:

Which SuperHero would you rather be.. Batman or Spiderman.

NOW WAIT...

I know your thinking "That sounds stupid and it doesn't make any sense"

Lol to you it may not but for me it helps me feel them out alot more.

Now if the fellow i'm talking to say's Batman these things start to pop up into my mind

*Batman or Bruce Watched his parents get murdered. And instead of

just crying and not moving forward in his life. He decided to be strong &

take revenge by not being a thug [nuh uh no gangster up in here]

but by stoping crime. And to try and be a better person.

* Now if you don't know this already imma tell ya anyways.

Bruce Wayne is a playa. Yes indeedy he is.

*He's fit to the tee, he doesn't need a gun. Bare hands my

Brother.

*Might not be important to you but he had a GREAT father figure in

his life.... Alfred Pennyworth. Alfred is the coolest wisest cat in the world

and if he wasn't in his life then...... who knows what would happen?

So with all that popn in my head ima think the guy i'm talking to has a good heart, maybe has been through something in his life. Is kinda a playa lol. And wants to do something in his life.

Now if Brother man picks Spiderman this will pop in my head.

* Peter is an orphan. He's never seen his parents.

He's Raised by his older aunt and uncle.

* Mr. Parker is a nerd.... [Which is SEXY!! ow ow!]

*Peter didnt go to the gym and work out...

He got his powers by getting bit by a spider.

*In love with a girl , became her best friend and then after

chasing her , and her falling for other people . Then he finally

Get's the girl [i love lupe and I had to say smthg about him after that]

*AND... he kinda sorta kills his uncle the greatest man in his life...

Taught him clothed him feed him , and that happens... Smh

Now I'd say if the guy picks spiderman.. lol He loves hard. And he may do before he thinks.

But loves photography like me so you know I love that! =D He may be smart but not work as hard as others...

But will I tell you which one is my favorite.. UGHHHH NUH!!! [ In micheal kyle voice]

I hope that you gain

Have you ever had a journal or a diary?

Well I have recieved SOO many in my life, And sadly they All look the same.

The first couple of pages are full from top to bottom about things that I went through,

Which crack me up on a whole new level.

But after the first couple of pages there all empty.

It's So hard for me to start something and FINISH it..

But this Blog stuff [which you can tell i'm qutie Fresh at]

looks like something I can do and enjoy doing.

No matter how colorful the binder or the journal or diary...

It just doesn't move me.

But Having something blank gets me So excited.

Excited to create something no one else has.

It doesn't matter if someone likes what I write or not.

All I know is I write and I know i'll like it.

If some folks Like what I have to say then YaY for them.

They will gain something and that's what I like to see.

I hope to gain more and more by writing and saying what's on my mind.

And looking at others blogs and gaining from them.

So many people are so into losing , I want to gain.